:: Dying ::

Two weeks ago, I had a weird dream. I dreamt of myself dying.

I was lying on a bed, in a place that looked like a hospital, for a reason I didn’t even know.

I was so weak. I could hardly move.

With every breath that I took, I knew one thing for sure ー I had not much time left. Every single inhalation and exhalation was getting harder and painful. It felt as if the air was no longer containing oxygen.

I took another breath, a shallow one, quietly. I looked at the people around me. I could barely recognize any of them. My eyes were looking for a person that I really wanted to see ー my mom. She wasn’t there. Continue reading

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:: 離せる ::

さよならの前に
心の迷路の中で迷う

忙しなくする日々
紛らわすため埋め込んだ

私が愛し過ぎた人
絡み過ぎて絡みあった糸

解けなくなって別の道を歩む
そのために、さようならと言う

始まりはいつの日も
雨の中隠した涙の先に

分かれ道 はそう
続くだろう

:: Pelangi Pagi ::

7.06 pagi.

Pagi-pagi ini buka tingkap untuk lihat cuaca. Kalau tak hujan, mahu ke tasik. Tiba-tiba, nampak ini.

Rasanya belum pernah aku nampak pelangi dari rumah begini. Teruja, aku beritahu emak.

Emak yang masih bertelekung menjenguk ke tingkap bilik dan katakan perkara yang sama.

Memang tak pernah.

:: The Storyteller ::

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Jodi Picoult’s novel never fails to bring me to tears. This, too, is admirably good.

It’s a story about a 95 year-old former Nazi officer who is searching for redemption and forgiveness for what he did and/or involved during the Holocaust, of the World War II.

To be honest, I didn’t know that The Storyteller will actually tell in details about what had happened back then, during the Holocaust. I wasn’t expecting such thing. The Storyteller is set in three parts. Only after I started reading Part 2, I realized that I would definitely be captivated by this novel. I just couldn’t put it down since then.

There is a story in the story. Even that story was written so beautifully that I found Jodi Picoult so brilliant to write it that way. The twists, like always, they were beautifully plotted. She is doubtlessly, a good storyteller.

*minor spoiler alert*

It’s just that I was really hoping for the Hauptscharfuhrer to finally meet Minka again, after the war. But that didn’t happen. They never did. 😢

:: ランダム ::

最近、日本語の勉強時間があまりなかった。クラスも色々な事なのでいつもキャンセルされた。来週、テストの復習をする。2週間後で、アッパーインターメヂット2のレベルのテストだから。

今までこの学校で勉強するのはもう3年半年ぐらいだ。そう言う事だから、日本語の勉強ももう3年半年立ったね。年月がいつの間にか過ぎ去った。

今年は能力試験を受けないかもしれないので、なんか、勉強する気分がない。それはだめなんだよね。なので、ここで日本語で書いているよ。

あ、今月末私は済州島へ行くんだ。今回の旅行は一人じゃなくて、弟といとことユスラさんといくつもりだ。4人だ。

まあ、多いほどもっと良いかな。